February 2012
6 posts
Let's get a grip boyo.
Come on now
Somebody entertain me...
Wokka wokka wokka
Why is it that right when i start doing great things for my body i start doing things to sabotage myself at the same time…
But I'm sleeping in an empty bed tonight...
Damn, the loneliness creeps sometimes.
January 2012
3 posts
I wish someone at least cared enough to come sit...
I just dont understand how so many friends can see one in utter lonliness and constantly reaching out… yet never try. Its discouraging. :/
tofucubes asked: Where are you? :( Are you okay?
December 2011
13 posts
1 tag
anyone around to talk?
Is kind of lonely.
3 hours later. guess not.
I guess I'll just throw this mix tape away...
always losing.
2 tags
It Comes In Waves
Day: 461
Date: 12.26.11
Days smoke-free: 461
Mood: Numn
Listening to: nothing
So, I broke up with Nikki about 5 days ago. These have been the hardest few days of my life. The pain comes in waves, It will lay dormant for a while and then just swell and hit with unbelievably crippling force. I was sitting here cleaning the room and I picked up a shirt off the floor. That’s when I broke....
tofucubes asked: I just read your post and I think I can relate a little, even though I don't know exactly what is is you're dealing with. Anyway, I'm proud of you for maintaining, that's awesome. Keep it up and happy holidays!
3 tags
This has to be honest.
Day: 458
Date: 12.23.11
Days smoke-free: 458
Mood: lost
Listening to: Gavin Degraw - Mountiains to move
Where have I been? Man. It’s been a ride. I did a lot of learning. and a lot suffering. A lot. I made a lot of mistakes and I barely held on long enough to write this message. My life has been turned completely upside down for a shot at something that may not even become tangible....
tofucubes asked: I hope this doesn't sound weird. But just a couple of days ago, I was thinking about you and wondering where you've been. I'm glad you're back :) hope all is well.
diminishingovertime asked: Welcome back. Bout time you got back :) I hope all is ok with you. It's good to have you here
I just had the hardest conversation in my life.
but its done and I need to pick up the pieces. fuck. I promise this will get back to weight loss.
I missed this place.
But I’m back now. I have a lot of thinking to do. And this place took me in last time and if it’s still the same cool people. they should again.
Does anyone remember me?
August 2011
1 post
July 2011
2 posts
wooooooo!
I’m back in the 250’s! I’m making this comeback like a boss!
WatchHey, you wanna be sad? Of course you do!
June 2011
15 posts
6 tags
Gravity pulls as we fall from the clouds.
Day: 273
Date: 06.22.11
Days smoke-free: 273
Mood: annoyed
Listening to: Smash Mouth - Holiday In My Head
I don’t think I’ve ever sweat so much in my life as much as I did this morning. I rode my bike in 90 degree weather to the gym where I ran about 2 miles and did a couple sets of push ups and then rode home. it feels good. tbh, I feel like I’m finally starting to get...
1 tag
A Week of Challenges
Day: 271
Date: 06.20.11
Days smoke-free: 271
Mood: relaxed
Listening to: The Clash - London Calling
Started w2d1 of c25k. It was another gain week. I’m now at 263.1. It is what it is. Not going to dwell.
So I’ve started a cleanse week. I’ve done this once or twice before and it has always worked if I followed through. The basic rules is no meat. Plain and simple. a...
2 tags
I'm a Little Disappointed in Myself...
Day: 270
Date: 06.19.11
Days smoke-free: 270
Mood: bummed
Listening to: Moby - South Side
After another munchies fueled binge yesterday, I decided that I can no longer handle smoking weed while simultaneously looking out for my health. I told myself that I would make the best decision for me and I am. So after what I have is gone, that’s going to be it for a while.
I never used to...
Life goes on, brah!
Day: 278
Date: 06.17. 11
Days smoke-free: 278
Mood: sooooore D:
Listening to: The Beatles - Ob-La-Di Ob-La-Da
About to hop in the shower so i thought id do a quick posty post. I’m sorry as he’ll today. In total in did about 50 push ups yesterday which is a lot for me so my chest, shoulders and arms are tore up. And oddly enough, my abs are also sore. Wtf?
I got a full day...
2 tags
1 tag
It's really hard to look like a boss in the gym...
When you’re listening to n’sync. D:
Day: 267
Date: 06.16.11
Days smoke-free: 267
Mood: owie
Listening to: Watching The Colbert Report
In accordance with my anti-Man-Boob policy, I hit the gym for the first time in weeks. Recently, I’ve been running, walking or cycling outside, no gym required. I started the 100 Pushups program. I’ll let you guys know how it goes as...
I really need to start working on my chest...
Man-boobs suck.
One More Round...
Day: 266
Date: 06.15.11
Days smoke-free: 266
Mood: happy
Listening to: NoFX - Bottles To The Ground
Yesterday marked me being 100 days away from me being on this journey for a whole year, holy moly thats a long a time to make a life change. I would like to be at the 75lbs lost mark by then. That means I need to be at 235 lbs. Thats 75lbs away from my starting weight of 310 lbs and 26lbs...
1 tag
Jinkeys
Day: 265
Date: 06.14.11
Days smoke-free: 265
Mood: Groggy
Listening to: The Clash - Guns of Brixton
I haven’t been sleeping well lately, so last night I mixed some sleeping pills. 2 Unisom and a melatonin and that combo just knocked me flat out. I’m so groggy this morning but I slept really well. Today is a walk day. But It’s going to be like 93 degrees today so I’m...
I'm pretty proud of myself.
For the first time in weeks I practiced some self control at dinner. Atta kid.
3 tags
Summertime... and the livin' is easy.
Day: 264
Date: 06.13.11
Days smoke-free: 264
Mood: SWEATY
Listening to: Michael Jackson - Ghosts
Helloooooooooooooooooooooooo. I went out running this morning. Decided it’s best to start from scratch and redo C25K from the start. With summer here it is nuts though. went like 3 steps and sweat like a gallon. Terrible stuff. I’ve gained about 12 lbs since we last met when I was...
Wanna hear me messing around on the piano for 21... →
May 2011
1 post
Yooo.
So I know I haven’t been updating at all lately. I promised to be back but then wasnt. I guess I kinda feel at this point that a blog isn’t neccesary. I don’t feel inclined to post anymore. It’s weird. Good news is when I weighed myself on Monday I lost 2.9 lbs. So woot. :)
April 2011
74 posts
[Clever Title]
Day: 217
Date: 04.30.11
Days smoke-free: 217
Mood: claustrophobic
Listening to: The wind
Man, it’s windy today. Too windy to go out and exercise, but I probably will anyway. For the last few days I’ve felt much more confident having Katie on my team helping me out. It hasn’t been total victories (like yesterday when I got wasted and ate an entire fridge) but I feel like...
And the beat goes on.
Day: 215
Date: 04.28.11
Days smoke-free: 215
Mood: frustrated
Listening to: Watching Home Improvement
Can’t lie, I’m struggling. My new phone buddy Katie is being a lifesaver though. I really do feel like she’s not going to give up on me. And that would make one person who hasn’t. So it’s nice knowing I have that one in the pocket.
I just need to stay fucking...
livingnick-deactivated20110822 asked: you gotta keep going... I know you hit your ugw but remember the actual goal is changing your lifestyle..if you give up and stop after hitting your ugw you will gain all the weight back. stay strong man!!
Anonymous asked: You realize there is no "end of this" right? That you are responsible for your body for the rest of your life and you're not going to have anyone to hold your hand forever? You need to be able to control yourself without anyone looking over your shoulder.
It's not like running one 5K guarantees you health. You have years and years and if you can't change...
It's not like running one 5K guarantees you health. You have years and years and if you can't change...
NICK! what’s happening?! let’s get back on track...
An accountability partner like this is what I really need. Someone to like, hold my hand until the end of this.
PS:
Since I’m starting this new chapter of my journey, I really need to surround myself with true weight loss blogs, so rebloggers and life bloggers will probably fall to the wayside. It’s nothing personal, I promise.
2 tags
Another Weigh In
Day: 215
Date: 04.25.11
Days smoke-free: 215
Mood: motivated
Listening to: Watching King of Queens
Last week: 254.4
This week: 256.6
A GAIN of 2.2 lbs.
a total loss of 49.4 lbs
It’s pretty humbling to even post this. 3 gain weeks straight. Here’s the thing. The last month I’ve had no goals and no program as well as no guidelines set out like I did before. So, with an...
An update...
Day: 211
Date: 04.21.11
Days smoke-free: 211
Mood: worried
Listening to: Long Story Short - Venom
So, where have I been? Nowhere really. There’s some good news; I got a mountain bike finally, so I can throw in some sorely needed variety into my workout. It’s currently in the shop until Friday. Dropped about $150 on a tune up, lube job (giggity), new derailer and some general...